My mom asked me if I have school tomorrow. I said no, but I've got my final year project to do. She replied, "Project, project." With a tone that implied that she didn't believe me.

I lost it. I yelled, "What? You don't believe me? I've got lots of projects to do, a lot of school work! You don't believe me, that's fine!"

She tried to cover up by saying, "I just meant 'oh, project, project...'" Fuck, man, do you take me a fucking 10 years old kid? Do I look that naïve to you? I know what you meant, and you know that I know what you meant. Don't insult me by trying to give stupid excuses.

I replied, "Oh, listen to your own tone! That wasn't what you said!"

I slammed the door to my room and went to type this. I just need to let this out.

I don't appreciate it that I've been working my ass off in school stuff and here she is, disbelieving that I have my project to be done. I've essentially been working alone on this final year project with less than minimum help from my project members, and she has the cheek to imply that I'm lying. The fucking project is due in March, and I don't need her nonsense. What does she know about all the stress that I am in? That I put myself into? I'm under all these crap and I have a mother who's disbelieving me.

Have all my good grades not meant that I've been doing what I said I am doing right now? That I've been doing what I said I've been doing all along? Have she not seen the hard work that I made myself do? Doesn't all these prove to her that I am, at least, trustworthy? Why does she even need to second guess what I say?

I am feeling so stressed.

At times like these, I wish I have a room of my own.

Guys break down too sometimes, you know.

This feeling will pass by the time I post this entry.